ღ【♀♂JθcёLyŋ.Küaŋ】の心情语言ღ

Its 2.23am now....

今天在医院真的很累...

我觉得，我一直撑着...

在爸妈面前，我要强颜欢笑...

爸病情严重，吃不下，呼吸困难，吃了就呕，睡不下...

我知道爸爸其实很担心我，只是他不说因为不想给我压力...

妈妈每次看见我哭，我知道她很心疼...

姐姐在韩国，一直担心我和爸爸...

我会照顾爸...

我真的会撑着...

就算我胃疼，我不想吃...

我还是逼比较吃2口...

因为不想爸有事的时候，我也倒了...

妈会担心...

今天我在医院，我还是想起你...

我觉得如果时间倒回头，你会在这个时候撑着我...

你会告诉我，爸会没有事的...

我还有机会听你对我说:'不用怕，我会在你身边支持你！' 吗???

我在医院真的落泪...

当我看到妈不支，睡着了....

我就更加心疼......

妈没有一天睡得好，我也是....

甚至爸也是...

我担心爸，想念他....

妈却担心我和爸...

爸就因为肾病搞到每天睡不好....

我真的让自己和妈太累了...

对不起妈....

如果时间倒回，我会逼爸去做身体检查，至少在他还没有病倒那么严重的时候就开始治疗...

现在爸很辛苦，无论我，姐，或妈，都很关心他....

爸不烟，不酒，为什么会得到这个病...

就算现在要我们照顾他，

我们从来不会埋怨半句...

他辛苦的一辈子....

现在我和姐长大了....

是时候我们来照顾回你了...

这一阵子要你为我担心，但是相信我...

过一阵子，我会收拾心情....

开始我的生活....

我不会要你们担心很久的....

对他，我会改变以前对他的态度...

不会因为工作而忽列了他...

一直认为他对我做的是应该的....

一直隐藏对他的感动....

今天在医院，我很希望他还是会信息告诉我...

他会在后面撑着我...

但是没有了....

我不会怪他....

我会给时间他想.....

如果我尽力了，得不到我要的结果....

我问心无愧...

我不后悔..

这几天，很庆幸，有2个傻婆愿意每天听我诉苦....

生病了，都出来陪我...

放工了，飞出来陪我....

虽然，你们没有说好听的东西给我假希望...

但是我知道你们也很关心我，担心我...

放心，我不会令你们失望..

Give n take ...

I remember what u told me ....

I sure bear all thing i get at the end~!! 

I swear If sumday u guys need me ,i be thr for u 2 ....

shino ,sharon ~!!

Really thx alot....

还有其他关心我的朋友...

谢谢你们的关心....

我不想说的事就别问了...

到我想说，我会告诉你们的...

thx for all concern...

I realise smtg in this few days~!!

If thr are smtg lost,u will found bek a lessons..

Now,he need times...

he din find me...

make me remind alot sweet thing btw us ...

i rmb it very clearly...

Last yrs CNY,he know i wan to go FGS.he sick aso acc me go thr...

1sttime i go velvet ,i din tell mum,mum keep call me ...

after he know ,he 2am come velvet fetch me bek...

a BF do till lidat really make me feel sweet ~!!

i very rmb ,gt 1 time bii n me having exam ,but i serious ill...

bii come my house take care me...

when i wan water ,he take for me,when is time eat med,he ask me wake up...

when i slping ,he sit bside me study ....

really make me feel the sweetness btw us ...

i watch all my blog ...

i found all days in this yrs ,i 80% aso tgt wif him ...

as shino said :'没有人必要对你好'...

i really get it ...

i Know u treat me nice is bcoz u sek me ...

but i jz tot all is u nessecary to do ... 

sorry bii~!!

i really know u r love me oni everytime argue aso admit is u wrong..

i know i really so 小姐脾气..

can we hv 1 chance to b a better bf/gf to each other ???

this few days i cnt slp well...

i crazy dou i dream dat i dream he coming bek ....

then i wake up in dream see he really back to my side ..

i so happy ,i promise him i will treasure him well ....

but actually all jz a dream..

everyday i wake up,i see my hp no his msg ..

i really feel so disapointed ~!!

My dad gt serious ill ...

i aso feel so stress..

coz i evereyday cry n make mum worried alot..

mum worried me n dad ...

dad lately keep vomit after eating...

i can tell u bii,i stress i aso dun  think to gif up our relationship..

coz i know u r the 1 i keep finding for ~!

i single for 2 yrs b4 i tgt wif u ...

in this 2 yrs i waiting a guy like u appear ~

Till 2010,u appear n make me feel i so secure wif i'm wif u ~!! 

i will happy to meet u and be wif u ~!!

I happy coz i know u very serious on this relationship~!!

Bii,if u see it ,i gt 1 post is write after u bek to ktn,the password is the day i tgt wif u ...

u can see what my feeling when u tell me u wan bek kuantan help dad wrk ...

i know u din see my blog longtime edy rite ?

dat all my feelings i no tell u b4...

i know u still very caring me,very sek me ...

i dunno did u still tears drop in nite ...

I hope we can start all again ,n gif each other 1 chance to be a better person in future...

u always tell me u r nt a guf bf,u cnt do what u promise...

i know u gt heart enuf........i know u will try to fullfill...

i wan to tell u ,i aso nt a guf gf ,bt i try to do a best gf to take care u n caring u in future...

don make decision is me n ur family...

coz u can having both of us ...

my family treat u as 1 of them edy..

n i aso treat ur family as my family ...

all is not a problem ....

i hope time heals n remind u ,i always by urside..

i know lastime i keep wrk din go up find u, u very disapointed coz u miss me ,hope to see me...

i promise u ,u wont take job on sat ,if u hope to see me ...

i always b thr for u ...

i will giving u caring,time,trust to u ~!!

Its 100% love for u ..

i not like u ..

i jz love u babe...

love is around us ...
I waiting u come bek to me ...
WONG TENG HUI

I jz can is my false this time...

and thr alot misunderstanding btw us ..

i know i should nt argue wif u in hospital make u cry in hospital...

i aso cry in my fren car,my heart aso very painful....

1st,i nt angry u bcoz u bring ur grandpa go hospital dun come kl..

2nd,you telling my sis say you gt call me on noon i no listen,bt i really no get any call....

        you know i hw angry i aso will listen ur phone...

i dunno wad can say btw us now......

i can say if i can choose,i will choose to walk till end wif u..

i know i always fatt din,fatt lan zha is my false..

but i really hope thr still a chance to us...

we both serious on tis relationship...

do u rmb lastime hw happy we was ??

i know i bad temper,i trying to chg edy ..

u say u can feel it too ...

sumtime,really mz gif we 1 changing to keep the relation on...

no couple is 天生一对...

all aso argue argue ,then ntg ...

i hope now really wont end up our relationship ....

i know i dun think of u b4...

coz i dun understand u ...

but i edy try my best to 'zau' u ...

shino n sharon really help me alot...

my sis n mum aso tell me alot...

they let me know,break up ,dun easily talk ...

even hw angry hw sad aso cnt say ...

now i really regret,bt can i hv a last chance ??

i will try my best to fight back my love to u ...

i always say him i pay many patient,pay many tears to tis relationship...

but mayb he r doing the same but i dunno then i say him dint not...

i understand now all...

i understand 感情付出不要太计较...

dun go calculate who pay more,who pay less...

will it b too late ??

i jz sms to his cousin,jc..

to ask her say sry to his grandpa n aunty all make them missunderstanding me..

i really don mean dat...

sry grandpa n ah yi all...

actually i really think to go ipoh,but my dad nt feeling well...

if i gt doing wif him mayb ,all wont happen...

until here i jz wanna say i will fight for myself 'xing fu'...

dats u ...

n i really very wrong this time...

if u wan keep tis relationship,i will b right here ...

i still waiting for u here...

thx all fren n family support me ^^

   
 1st pic of us,sunway pyramid,do u rmb ??

   

 Maiu japanese buffer ,we anniversary aso go thr for dinner...
i hope we gt more anniversary wif u ..

 popular wif u =)

  
bukit tinggi wif u

  
in my hse =)

  
Inside zouk~!

  
lastime we msn..

  
1stime  u cook spagati for me ...
i will rmb u r the 1st guy who cook for me

 
lastime we in the class 

 
still rmb ??this is datime we argue...i wrk in sentral u come sengaja take for me ??
its warm in my heart..

 
1st gift u giving me ,in 1st week we tgt..
i still rmb it...


 

we coursewrk ,i go ur hse for revision =)
FA~!!
i rmb it ..

 
both of my love...

u n yanyan...

 
celebrate ur 1st bday at ur ah yi hse...
sg siput...
aso 1stime meet up ur mum,n all ur family ...=)
i rmb ur ah yi cook alot ...
n JC ,very frenly cousin =)

  
going genting trip wif u ...

  
doing mask in hse when we free...haha..

  
u bring me go secret receipt ~!!
coz u know i like eat tiramisu ...


    
cupido ...
u know i like n buy for me..
put in ur car let me hug ...

  
sg lembing wif u ~!!
1st time go ur grandpa hse 

My bday~!!
actually u wan bring me go rakuzen raja chulan,bt dat shop close..
at end we go end ho fun oni then go quatrro ...

  
1st time u gave me flower ... 
and aso i 1stime get flower ...
20 yrs old oni get flower from a guy =)

  
1/1/2011 ...
we join ur cousin go bamboo9

  
I rmb u fetch me n MH go wrk then wait me 4 hrs ...
n fetch me bek home...
i feel sweet really ....
coz u willy wait me 4 hrs jz for fetch me ...

  
we going shopping for cny shirt =）


  
take it when my sis wedding ...
lastime we say we mz hold it on like my sis n her husband...
long distance but mz hold till end...
they sucess edy...
can we b the 2nd pair ??

  
we going overtime after sis wedding dinner ...



all our memory i wont forget..

even argue in this few month lately...

but i rmb all happy moment wif u ...

i hope i still gt chance make more happy memory wif u ...

pls dun gif up n let go me ...

i Promise...

I will hold u tie tis time ....

i wont 小姐脾气...

i wont say break up like eat vege anymore....

if i still gt chance....

i still waiting ur reply...

i wait for u ....

I hope u can walk wif me till the end of my life... 

It's rainny day in my heart 2day~!!

wake up in 7am n having breakfast wif dad n mum..

2day we fetching dad go UM ...

My dad nowadays everyday feel so tired...

and started blur blur...

bcoz kidney problem...

he need to start dialysis edy...

we around 9am reach um...

then the nurse tunjuk sini tunjuk sana...

making us go many diff department...

i really really hate govr hospital...

F**K~!!

then till mostly530pm oni let my dad go dialysis department...

after acc dad go the dept,me n mum join sis n her husband dinner...

n take some food to dad~!!

7pm we going bek to um visit dad...

dad do a operation n put a host on his neck ..

i see the blood on his head n ear...

i jz feel wanna cry...

i noe he feel hard...

he dun say bcoz he dunwan we worry...

then dad ask us go home rest...

coz me n mum rushing a whole day in UM edy...

he say he need to dialysis for 5 hrs

2molo can bek home edy...

my heart feel so hard ..

 see dad fom a very greedy ,always very happy..

turn to a slim,nt eat much n always tired look~!!

really make me tears drop ...

i hope after dialysis he will bcome better ...

go home rest ...

11pm dad call us again...

say the dialysis dept no bed let him slp...

WTF..

i very angry hear tis..

what F**king hospital is tis ??

a patient no bed to rest~!! 

ask dad slp at thse cacat chair...

me,sis n the husband straight away go hospital...

mum pack some thing bring to dad...

my sis go thr straight go inside scold the nurse...

complain complain...

me n dad sit at outside those chair ...

luckily bring a pack of biscuit to him...

he say he hungry coz din finish the dinner...

he tell me he life is so hard..

he had diabates,high blood pressure now kidney problem..

he say now he swollen saliva also pain...

haih...

i very sam tong my dad ...

nwadays life really make me feel hard..

My j.collection all customer complain complain..

i not free hw i post all thing out .. 

for my study,i try my best to do..

really no heart study n 2day the whole day i also no time to study...

for my bf,feel he chg alot...

Now i oni noe y ppl working ppl will chg...

It damn real...

I very moody when i hear my dad say he no bed to rest..

i tell my bf,he tell me oo,he wan go slp..

WTF....

I wan say ,if a gf moody,u slp less awhile ntg d gua ...

nvm le...

lastime the bf dat who caring me alot really no more...

Now we din meet each other ,n i started feel wer is the love btw us now?

when i more care n care abt him,he also nt care me...

24hrs per day,he jz gave me 3 hrs ..

8pm to 11pm ..

dats all ...

mrning or noon,he wont sms me or call me...

till 7pm++ oni say i bek home le...

dats all for us nw...

i really feel so sad,slping is more important than gf mood ~!!

NVM le...

i start to tell myself...

he don care y should i care ?

nw he dun msg or call me,i also nvm ...

jz see hw we will b bah~!!

To maintain a long distance relationship ?

seem like is jz i keep remain it... 

1yrs 4 month relationship is more thinner than a paper...

But who care ?

I care!

HE DONT!!

It's my Rainny Day 2day..

Gud9 

I am so stress Now...

everytime i exam i also will cry lonely~!!

i don dare let anyone see i tear drop~!!

actually i also feel like wanna gif up my studies~!!

i study diploma for 3 yrs...

wtf~!!

y am i so stupid....

2molo last sem ...

seriously...

i totally not confident~!!

But my dad n mum keep wan me study till degree...

actually i edy fed up~!!

I noe myself very well..

i not those gal will guai guai sit home study study all of time...

so y mz force me to study ??

haih!!

talk so much crap 4 what...

i repeat 11subject~!!

till now i leave 4 subject~!

y cnt i get stronger n pass this 4 n graduated??

actually i always think...

when i can get marry ,so i nonid always stress on study~!!

haha..

very very silly ~!!

jz sometime =) 

I jz feel so stress NOW~!!

but i still mz go on ~!!

Let myself cry now...

jz 5 minutes~!!

I telling myself..

I MUST GO ON ~!!

I CANT SURRENDER~! 

I can pass ~!!

jz last 4 subj,i console myself ...

6am wake up...

take lrt to tarc..

so tired...

Zzzz..

reach lrt call fei doi cum fetch me...

Thx fei doi...

1st class...

FAP ...

soo kee heng class...

keep press hp..

haha..

but still can understand wad he say la..

hehe...

1100am..

finish my class...

My feidoi still gt class...

so hv to wait him ><..

 1230pm,he finish class...

we go leisuremall eat mcd..

my fei doi wan buy pink cola cup...

he suddenly addicted to those cola cup..

dunno y ...

Haha....

after dat,go bek to home...

slp ...

ZzzZzzz...

we tired till beh tahan..

then 6pm lidat go mv walk walk...

buy smtg ...

meet felix lam ...

haha...

so ngam ...

then dear fei doi go maxis iphone fair thr..

ply ppl iphone again..

he is very '兴奋' to waiting his white iphone...

lol...

iphone also haven get,keep say wan buy casing...

ZzzZzz..

around 8pm bek home ,eat our dinner...

930 go yc ..

sei fei zai ask me eat again..

make me beh tahan N eat again..

arh....

stop pls ah kuan...

u very fat jo ...

><!!!!

No choice,who ask me like to eat snack..

yer..

geram-nya..

>.<....

Go bek slp lo..

Gud9 ppl ...=D

2molo my new lens arrived home...

=D

yea...gt new lens ^^

Today wake up around 11am lidat...

acc my sis go fitting the wedding gaun..

at Mon liza castle -PJ..

the room there really quite huge..

Many gaun inside...

really nice...

XD...

after my sis try all the gaun choosen...

I try it too..

Haha..

love the gaun i try ...

XD...

my sis choose the gaun i try

XD..

Pic

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Haha...take pic in the fitting room..

Hehe....

the gaun she choosen...

the backside of gaun(she cnt zip the dress)haha

all her dress pattern same..XD

Me..wakakaa

try the gaun my sis choosen..

Nice ??I like tis gaun too ..><

End up wif my self -portrait..XD

5pm reach home...

started our job 2nite...

=D

Hope after 5 yrs,i can wear those leng leng wedding gaun too la..XD

Nitez..